We must remember this: discipleship is cross-shaped.
If you're experiencing the cross, then it's not because of where you are. It's not because of the people around you. It's not because of some particular circumstance.
It's because discipleship is cross-shaped. If you were in a different place, with different people at a different time and being a faithful disciple there, then you'd find the cross there too.
So don't wish to be elsewhere, with others, etc. Submit to the cross, and believe in the Lord who is nailed there with you - and in his resurrection also.