Do you have any tears?

The speech of Paul to the Ephesian elders in Acts 20: 

"18 And when they had come to him, he said to them: “You know, from the first day that I came to Asia, in what manner I always lived among you, 19 serving the Lord with all humility, with many tears and trials which happened to me by the plotting of the Jews; 20 how I kept back nothing that was helpful, but proclaimed it to you, and taught you publicly and from house to house, 21 testifying to Jews, and also to Greeks, repentance toward God and faith toward our Lord Jesus Christ."

Note:

• Paul served amongst the people. His life was an open book to them. He could appeal to them to testify as to how he had lived, because they all knew. Like the Lord Jesus Christ, he came to where those he was serving were, and walked as one of them.
• Moreover, his life of service amongst them was consistent. He was not a part-time servant: he had "always" lived amongst them in the same way. Service was not something that he turned on and off, with limits and boundaries: his identity was that of a servant of the Lord. He served with all humility, as his Master did.
• This service brought him "many tears and trials". Paul's life and soul were in his service. He was not a "fixed hours contract" man. Before he gave anything else (time, money, particular labours), he gave himself. And consequently, he brought upon himself many sorrows.

Servant of Jesus, do you have any tears? Or is your ministry carefully constructed to make sure you avoid them? All is clean, professional, well-ordered, to keep all the messiness and pain of sharing your life with other human beings who you are giving yourself in order to bless in Jesus' name at a comfortable arms-length distance?

"I wrote to you out of much affliction and anguish of heart and with many tears", Paul said to the Corinthians. "many, of whom I have often told you and now tell you even with tears, walk as enemies of the cross of Christ", he wrote to the Philippians. "I remember your tears", the aged Paul wrote to his son in the faith, Timothy.

Again I ask, servant of Christ, do you have any tears? Is your heart and life sufficiently joined to those that you are serving that, when inevitably the trials and sorrows of human reality intervene, you can only weep? If yes, then the promise of Scripture is that they are stored up before God and precious to him - and one day Jesus will wipe them all away. If no, then, why is this?